Week #1 christmas countdown, rountines and getting my shit together.

Ok, so the love has continued.. I've started to love my blog again hurray! I've been doing uni work all weekend and all I've wanted to do is write to you all, which can only be a good sign!! I just miss talking to my friends abut random shit and not drafting up reflective reports in the dreaded third person. Between university work I've been brainstorming ideas and I'm bloody excited for the content I'm going to be creating over the next week, I wont say too much now as I don't want to jinx anything and promise content if I don't get it done in time as I do have a deadline Friday booooo. But its so exciting, I've had fun 'researching' without giving too much away.

This week has literally been the longest week, coming back of reading week and then in and out of uni whiles squeezing in football training (yeah I'm back playing football again and its fucking great) I literally feel asif I've had no time to myself.. literally at all. Also in advance I'm sorry if my writing is all over the place, I want to be writing asif I was chatting in person to you and it also gives me a break from formal writing so I hope its the style you like and I'll try to make sentences sound like sentences without being too informal. (the joy I just got from using the same word in the same sentence without having to the synonym tool on a word document was unreal haha)

The countdown to the Christmas break has well and truly begun. Now I'm not talking about putting decorations up in November which I've started to see but to have a break and spend time with my family is something I've been looking forward to since September. The thing I'm most looking forward to is a good nights sleep in a bed that isn't a uni bed (if you know, you know). I think the whole putting your decorations up in November is commitment but defiantly not for me in a sense I like to use Christmas an an emotional crutch through my deadlines and if I start too early I fear it wont help as much close to my deadlines.. I mean can anyone relate or is that just me?!

Something I've started to get really into is reading books! I used to be such a book worm when it came to anything Jacquline Wilson and you bet I read all the Angus thongs books (and tried and failed to keep my own diary which was updated every hour.. which I still have in a memory box hahaha) but more of the educational kind. I really want to step up on my reading and language this year as it is my downfall, I want to be able to use the fancy words and also understand the fancy words when spoken in a sentence to me. My main aim is to really get use of my uni library over the next year too, I've taken out 'Fashion and modernity' by Christopher Breward this week and I hope to read most if not all tomorrow and write notes about my opinion and what not. Do I hear book club or nah? I also went to the book launch of Victoria McGrath (Inthefrow) 'The new fashion rules' which I have started and enjoying so far. If you have any fashion-y books that you've enjoyed please let me know, I want to be a big fashion sponge and take in as much information as I can and hope I can be as consistent as I'd like to be with it.

So, this concludes my weekly round up of what I've been getting up to and my thoughts with what deems popular on my social media accounts. I hope you enjoyed chatting with me and is something you'd like to see my regularly, I like to waffle on about random shit so this is something I can look forward to at the end of a busy week. Hopefully next week I'll have more of a fix routine and I wont be so rushed off my feet (famous last words). I hope you check in again soon and you enjoy the rest of your evening. Feel free to chat in the comments or you can anonymously send me feedback and questions on this click here!

Being an adult, true crime and being shameful.

Hello.. again. I feel slightly shameful coming back for the tenth million time, but here I am.

I'm in need of a fresh start and a new routine and now is the time I want to start. There is no such thing as starting too late and that's something I still need to overcome. Being a 22 year old, soon to be 23 in their second year of university. I do feel like I'm past my time and 'too old' which is not the case. If I keep being in that mentality of its too late, I'll never start and i mean that in every aspect of my life.

I do really want to get back into blogging and YouTube as I felt like I found my purpose, my true passion but I did shut myself off. Instead of just being content with creating content. I picked on myself and saw the negatives and began comparing, which is literally the worst thing to do online and in real life. Another factor towards my 'wake up call' (if thats what you want to call it) is the fact i've now completed my first 'mini' term of second year and it honestly feels I've only been back at uni for a week.. time is literally slipping through my fingers and before I know it, I'll be a graduate with no idea or direction on where I want my life to go and I'll regret ever using this time to kick start and experiment what I want to do with my life.

I also want to take my blog in a new direction. I want to write about things I really enjoy and interests me and also to create a fun conversation between you and I. True crime has been a big interest of mine and I'd love to get into researching cases and creating my opinion and just having a conversation about something I'm passionate about. I will still be doing fashion and beauty posts (obviously) but it's something different and a topic I find interesting.

If this is something you'd be interested in following or have any suggestions feel free to let me know. I'm excited to see what this chapter will bring.

Word vomit, living arrangements and waiting.

Its been a long eight months..
Since turning twenty two in December. I've been through so many situations and challenges i'm really starting to believe that you twenties are the years you learn the most. The process from pretending to be an adult to actually saying you are an adult for real, really is a dramatic transition. In contrast to this I also feel I'm trying to grow up to quickly, I certainly have the mentality of someone much older but that's only because I have goals I want to meet but also being really impatient doesn't help either and I want to be living my future life now! ** If you haven't already worked out I'm a bit of a control freak and like everything to work out in the time I've imagined myself achieving it ** My end goals will always be in the back of my mind -- Law of attraction method right there -- but I do really love where I'm going career wise just maybe not at the speed I'd like to be at.
I'm five months into my new uni course and I'm obsessed. I've always been one that never liked or got on with education. ** I did mention this is my Q&A on my YouTube account ** I love all my tutors and I've made some really nice friends on the course too. Once I started to get grades back and understand where I want to be and how the skills from the course I can use now with my own mini projects as finally I can put myself at ease with the whole wasting time thing that I constantly think about. The course is challenging which is what I need to keep motivated and interested. I did start a uni series which I will continue you as I have completed the first term.

I've now lived in Huddersfield for three years now and I've made some really good experiences and some really bad. This is something i wish i knew more about before moving out that your environment is everything. From people you're living with, to the house/flat itself. Natural daylight is something I really wish I had in my second house. My bedroom was always dark and I had no light shining into my room which took its effect on my mood and well being. In the flat I'm in now I've never appreciated it more. I have direct sunlight and it's always bright which makes such a difference on my days off when I don't have to leave the flat. Moving away can be so lonely at times so finding a good group really makes you settle quicker. I've had my fair share of good and bad people so I've had it from both ends of the spectrum. Not everyone gets on I understand that but even so.. manors cost nothing right? Something that I'm going to experience for the first time next year is an all girl house. Which I'm so excited about because it's something new and they're all on my course so we'll have similar interests and the house is beauttttiful.

Something I seem to struggle with is consistency and routine. A lot of people have asked 'what happened with your blog? what happened with your YouTube?'  The YouTube thing is something I will continue once I have the right equipment. I was using my phone and my macbook (which is actually currently broken at the moment) and I wasn't happy with the quality of my videos and I really want to be able to give my best into YouTube as it's something I did really enjoy doing and want to be able to produce amazing content that I'm proud of. As for my blog, it's been neglected I'm not even going to sugar coat it. With my writing, it's something i see as a weakness. With dyslexia being my biggest wall in all this, I am truly showing everything. I think my content isn't good enough or reading worthy and this is something that has been an issue through my course and my whole education. I gained an anxiety from my blog and every time I'd go to write something I'd just exit the tab and do something else.. even though its something I want to do. It's a very weird situation that I am trying to work on with help from my uni. Once I've found my writing style and gain confidence in my writing this is something I want to be consistent with. This is why one of the words in the title is word vomit, which is exactly what this post is haha!

The direction I want my blog to go into is that it'll all be about my opinion. Something some people love and some people.. really wish i'd just shut my mouth and not say anything. I want to take topics on anything and everything and put my own twist onto things. I have so many ideas I want to do but I need to start from the very beginning which is my baby blog and really put my time into it and then branch into other projects like having my own podcast, YouTube properly this time, clothing collabs and loads of other things that I want to achieve.

Let me know what you think in the comments or over on my CC account here
Thanks for reading!

Hello!

My name's Ellie and I'm a 22 year old from Norfolk. I'm currently living in West Yorkshire. I'm currently studying Fashion Communication and Promotion. I have a strong interest in writing and producing content from photographs to vlogs. Alongside from my blog I do have a beauty channel over on YouTube. On here I'll showcase my favourite things and inspiration. 

I'd like to be able to inspire anyone that reads though my blog or watches my channel, as for me the most rewarding thing is to inspire others. I also love to learn new things from different types of people. So don't feel shy and come chat to me!
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Tumblr Tuesday's

I want to start this segment every tuesday where I find a collection of images I am inspired by. Recently after binge watching Zalfie vlogs of their new home. It just makes me that little bit more excited to be able to move out into my own home and to make it the most pinterest styled home possible! One of the main issues with living in student accommodations the rules are strict and you feel restricted to self express!

I've always like the way white furniture bring sophistication to a room, but I also feel everyyyyyone and their neighbor has that classic chique of white walls and the same ikea furniture. But growing up with siblings and a overactive pup, white doesn't stay white for long and being a crazy doggie lady. This won't be practical (but this probably wont stop me from having at least one white room!) I love cabin styled houses with really nice wood and really grand features like a bath in the floor haha! Something I'd love to have is an outside area, preferably on a balcony, a nice sitting area over a nice view. All I need to do is smash university and starting building my dream home hehe.

Elle x