Since turning twenty two in December. I've been through so many situations and challenges i'm really starting to believe that you twenties are the years you learn the most. The process from pretending to be an adult to actually saying you are an adult for real, really is a dramatic transition. In contrast to this I also feel I'm trying to grow up to quickly, I certainly have the mentality of someone much older but that's only because I have goals I want to meet but also being really impatient doesn't help either and I want to be living my future life now! ** If you haven't already worked out I'm a bit of a control freak and like everything to work out in the time I've imagined myself achieving it ** My end goals will always be in the back of my mind -- Law of attraction method right there -- but I do really love where I'm going career wise just maybe not at the speed I'd like to be at.
I'm five months into my new uni course and I'm obsessed. I've always been one that never liked or got on with education. ** I did mention this is my Q&A on my YouTube account ** I love all my tutors and I've made some really nice friends on the course too. Once I started to get grades back and understand where I want to be and how the skills from the course I can use now with my own mini projects as finally I can put myself at ease with the whole wasting time thing that I constantly think about. The course is challenging which is what I need to keep motivated and interested. I did start a uni series which I will continue you as I have completed the first term.I've now lived in Huddersfield for three years now and I've made some really good experiences and some really bad. This is something i wish i knew more about before moving out that your environment is everything. From people you're living with, to the house/flat itself. Natural daylight is something I really wish I had in my second house. My bedroom was always dark and I had no light shining into my room which took its effect on my mood and well being. In the flat I'm in now I've never appreciated it more. I have direct sunlight and it's always bright which makes such a difference on my days off when I don't have to leave the flat. Moving away can be so lonely at times so finding a good group really makes you settle quicker. I've had my fair share of good and bad people so I've had it from both ends of the spectrum. Not everyone gets on I understand that but even so.. manors cost nothing right? Something that I'm going to experience for the first time next year is an all girl house. Which I'm so excited about because it's something new and they're all on my course so we'll have similar interests and the house is beauttttiful.
Something I seem to struggle with is consistency and routine. A lot of people have asked 'what happened with your blog? what happened with your YouTube?' The YouTube thing is something I will continue once I have the right equipment. I was using my phone and my macbook (which is actually currently broken at the moment) and I wasn't happy with the quality of my videos and I really want to be able to give my best into YouTube as it's something I did really enjoy doing and want to be able to produce amazing content that I'm proud of. As for my blog, it's been neglected I'm not even going to sugar coat it. With my writing, it's something i see as a weakness. With dyslexia being my biggest wall in all this, I am truly showing everything. I think my content isn't good enough or reading worthy and this is something that has been an issue through my course and my whole education. I gained an anxiety from my blog and every time I'd go to write something I'd just exit the tab and do something else.. even though its something I want to do. It's a very weird situation that I am trying to work on with help from my uni. Once I've found my writing style and gain confidence in my writing this is something I want to be consistent with. This is why one of the words in the title is word vomit, which is exactly what this post is haha!
The direction I want my blog to go into is that it'll all be about my opinion. Something some people love and some people.. really wish i'd just shut my mouth and not say anything. I want to take topics on anything and everything and put my own twist onto things. I have so many ideas I want to do but I need to start from the very beginning which is my baby blog and really put my time into it and then branch into other projects like having my own podcast, YouTube properly this time, clothing collabs and loads of other things that I want to achieve.
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