Why I fell out of love with blogging

Honestly.. I don't think I have a straight answer to why I wanted to quit blogging. I mean, I just started so what did I have to quit? I feel the main reason why was because I put too much pressure on myself. I wanted my blog to be perfect from the very beginning, and it wasn't. Of course it wasn't, I didn't have a clue what I was doing, and that's what was frustrating me. I didn't want any help either because I'm very much one of those people who likes to do things on their own and figure stuff out for themselves and I cracked. 

Now I've taken time out and got my priorities straight, I'm ready to come back into blogging with a clear mind and alot less pressure than before and I'm just going to enjoy putting content together. Something I should've done from the very beginning. I've changed my office space to not my dark desk in my room but to my window so I don't feel as claustrophobic. (The sun misses my bedroom completely so I get 0 sun in my room which causes me to grumpy.) Once I've had a career change I also feel I'll be alot happier. Being in a very stressful job doesn't help my balance between work and my own time because I'm too knackered to do anything out of work that I really want to do. Being in a job with similar attributes will also help my inspiration and motivation. This will always help me get into the full swing of university (If I decide to go back, I've been 50/50 since being accepted by my top two choices haha) having deadlines for different posts, research for posts etc. You get what I mean. 

'My biggest fear is the fear of wasting time.' 

For once in my life I have choices.. Something that don't come around for me. I'm either forced into something by fate or I've had the decision decided for me and now becoming an adult I have to make decisions and I really don't like it if I'm being completely honest. I love how so many opportunities have come my way but I hate the thought of choosing. It's all for the fear of wasting time. My biggest fear is the fear of wasting time. I want to make sure I'm getting the fullest out of life and not having 'what ifs' or 'I wish I did that' I always joke to myself that I need a therapists to make my decisions for me but we all know what they'd say so there is literally no point. 

I would now make a promise about how I'll post tomorrow or I'm sorry for being absent, because I'm honestly not.. I'm glad I had the break to realise what I want and from now I'll post when I want to post instead of adding pressure that isn't needed to make something I love into a chore. 

The prettist photo I've taken of Huddersfield 

Thankyou for reading and hopefully understanding where I'm at, at the moment. I love all my OG readers and will understand why I needed to do this. 

Much Love

Elle x