This year I can honestly hand on heart say I've learnt the most. Not only about myself, but friends, family and just general life. This year has been really tough for me. Realising I was doing the wrong university course, exposure of how nasty people can be and just realising what I want to do with my one shot at life and to be satisfied with my life when the end comes.
I've had some really awful times this year and there's been tears and tantrums but I've also had some amazing memories, with amazing people that I will honestly remember for the rest of my life. From the minute I started college I had a five year plan, and if I didn't exceed that five year plan, in my head I failed and there was nothing else I could do, no plan B, always plan A. Since letting go of what I thought was the correct career choice for me, I've been so much happier. I do still panic and have the odd moment like f*ck what on earth am I doing, but I'm learning to ease the control and just enjoy life, something I wouldn't be doing because I was to worried about the future and how my life would be in 5-10 years.
'my skill in makeup wasn't good enough'
As some of you know I've done a few posts regarding toxic friends and toxic people. All I can say is I've had my fair share of awful people. I've also had a few people say I'm not good enough for the blogging world and also been slated for my makeup skills. This before I decided to expose myself and my love for makeup and blogging was my biggest fear. I would be lying if it wasn't a concern of mine to get slated for something I love so dearly. But when it came down to it and getting shouted at saying my skill in makeup wasn't good enough (this was said in a non PG way haha) I wasn't even bothered, which came as a shock to me because I thought I would get really upset about it. I just thought back to all the lovely messages I was getting through my ask box telling me how good I was and all the good reviews I was getting on my Facebook page. I knew as soon as my blog started to get more exposure that certain people would have nasty things to say about it. But that's life and I've learnt how to ignore and laugh at people getting angry over other people's success.
As for the good things in 2016. I have some really lovely, caring friends that I will carry with me through many years to come and this year has really made me appreciate who is worth keeping in my life. I've learnt to keep my private life.. well private and to keep those friends close that have always had my back. My life is so drama free at the moment and it's honestly the best ever. I enjoy spending time with my friends and boyfriend and keeping my upcoming ideas and plans for the future to myself. I can't even begin to explain how grateful I am of my family though this year as well, they've been so supportive of my career change and what I want to succeed in the next couple of years.
Nobody can plan their future as nothing ever goes to plan. But we can enjoy life and everything it throws at us. I'm going into 2017 with my head straight and focused on what I want to achieve in the next year. It's so weird that in a matter of three weeks i'll be 21 and weeks after that 2016 will be over. It honestly feel like yesterday it was summer and I was unsure on what I was going to do. This year has been fast but has taught me so much on what I want to do but also who I want to be. Although I feel I haven't achieved anything this year, when I look back and reflect I actually have. I'm just going to keep improving for myself and just going to keep on doing me.
